God I Am So Thankful for Your Mercy - Prayer Journal 238

Father, please help me to stop just going through the motions. I have known You too long and experienced too much of Your goodness, grace, mercy, and love to treat created things better than You. That should never be for You are my Creator and the Creator of all things. It seems like I make progress only to drift right back in a short while.

I am so flaky, inconsistent, up and down, and wishy washy. I need you to minister to me so that You are glorified in and through my life. I am so unworthy of knowing You, walking in intimate relationship with You, and being used by You for Your glory and Kingdom purposes. All I can say is great is Your mercy and grace unto me!

Yet there are times when I think that my behavior and performance earn me a special place with You. I compare myself to those around me and think that I am doing just fine forgetting that I am what I am only by Your grace. All I know in this moment is that I desperately need You. Please do not leave me as I am now. Grant me a holy encounter with Your manifest presence that will cause me to be in hot pursuit of You until I see You face to face.

I am so tired of treating You like You are common when You are the Holy One. You need nothing and no one. Yet You have made it possible for me to know You, through faith in Jesus Christ, and to partner with You in the accomplishing of Your will and purpose in the earth. Forgive me for disregarding and disrespecting You daily and then getting so upset when others do the same to me. How is it that You haven't just wiped me off of the face of the earth? Great is Your mercy!

As I read Your Word, I see a litany of people who were messed up and did not have it all together who You chose to walk with You and serve Your purposes in the earth. You knew everything about them and yet You wanted everything to do with them. They did not have to get it all together or become perfect before You called them and began using them. The same is true in Your involvement and interactions with me. I want to come across like I have it all together and the truth is I do not and will not until I am with You. Thank You again for Your abundant mercy. I love You Lord only because You first loved me. In Jesus' name, Amen!!!